going to hell

My experience of God is the most convincing evidence I have that there is no God. I was asleep, about eight years old. I had a visitation from God and he told me that because I said "God" I was going to hell. Theists might say I was dreaming and I would agree. I do not "think" that I am going to hell because I said "God.' Nor do I think that any of the prophets experienced any more clarity in their dreams or waking visions than I had in mine. They were dreaming or hallucinating too. Clarity of visions is of course a difficult thing to argue but something I can say with utmost certainty is that I experienced my vision and the theists did not. It might be possible to have a clearer, stronger experience than I had that night but I simply do not believe it. I do not think that your experience of reading this is a clear and unequivocal as was my experience of God telling me I was going to hell. The problem of course is that there would be no reason to send a child to hell for saying "God." There are then only two possibe scenarios: 1) The most real thing I have ever experienced in my life was a dream. 2) I spoke to God and am going to hell. As a child I tended to believe that 2) was the more likley of the two possibilities but then as I grew older and a bit more analytical I tended, of course, much more strongly towards option 1). As old age begins to settle in now I am instinctively tending towards option 2) again. Such is the toxic force of religious conditioning